
One thing I’ve noticed since this little adventure began is becoming increasingly anxious about the slightest bump, or itch or red-spot on my rather voluminous body.
Imagine if you could not scratch an itch for fear it might abrade your skin enough so that a lurking predator, like staph-a could set in. Now, add to that some personal grooming tasks. No eyebrow plucking, no leg shaving, no shaving anywhere - it ain’t pretty but then again neither is my face.
When I lay down at night, I am beset by this sort of suggestible or pyschosomatic itchiness and the accompanying anxiety thoughts (is it more MRSA? why am I freaking out over a random itch? why am does my inner-dialogue NEVER FUCKING PAUSE) plague me until I drift off. Last night, I took an Ambien™.
It is like my normal level of neuroses, ‘cept it goes to 11!